[b0son]

I think you need to prioritise. You seem to be getting bogged down in details and going nowhere.

To furnish a place, you need a place. To have a place, you need good job. To have good job you need qualifications. It seems to me your priority should be getting those qualifications. Right now you seem to be waiting for stuff to happen to others to prompt you to do something about your situation. Meanwhile, the world keeps turning....