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Originally Posted by ford man xf
Trejo what would happen if say there were two people near your house arguing, do you have to confront them for the anxiety to go away? If you try and resist the urges to go and see what is happening what normally would happen with you and your state of mind?
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wow! I Who would of thought my Ford would bring me here, to this point after 50years where people actually show concern and interest, giving me a piece of ... i don't know how to put it.. earthling acceptance.??.. but that question is so so close to the major debilitating factor for my anti socialism, and to honestly answer... i can't say i know til it's time once again to disassociate with myself as i step out of my body , to the top left above my head, and watch on. Latest example. . I took my old man to the dental clinic and as he was coming out i was over hearing patients in waiting room discuss a doctor and his practices name and address.. i knew this as he was my doctor. now i always wait outside waiting rooms, as it's always best for everyone if I do, and even though my post stroke drag footed 85 yo father is coming towards me, i couldn't wait to push past him and rush with my loud voice and say " oh for Christ's sake, its e... family med.. ka.... road e....! and then storm back past my old man and wait for him to finally make it to the car whilst i breath and prepare for the drive home. Do with that what you will, cause i still never cease to be dumbfounded by the elusive triggers